Insecure Writer's Support Group June

My first Insecure Writers Support Group post. And I'm feeling rather insecure about what I should be writing ;) I think I'd like to talk first about the internet and the support that's out there for writers. I worked on my first novella for a couple of years with hardly any support - apart from a certain amazing family who helped critique, proof-read and design the book cover - go the McMenamins LOL! The imagination of the story was easy compared with every other aspect involved in writing.

Fast forward to March 31st this year and I happened to land on the A-Z Blog Challenge via a friends blog. For someone who likes (okay, not actually likes, but rather, sadly cursed) to live by close deadlines I felt like fate had popped up and said "go on chicken, 24 hours, dare you!" So I dared. I chose an easy subject - Me! Okay, just like to point out I'm not actually 'easy', rather the subject matter was one I was comfortable with ;) But it was still a squeeze some days. However, what I found and learned made it so super worthwhile. Loads new followers - 6 to 42  in 2 months is okay by me, I don't feel quite like I'm talking to myself now. Except when I wander off in my head ..... And I found some awesome (can't resist using the word, DH hates it LOL) blogs to follow. But what amazed - astounded - surprised - impressed - me was the sheer number of writers crammed into the internet. Must be real squashed down those internet cables. It feels like an awesome ;) community. There's challenges, blog hops, loads of useful links, and support, so much support, and that's why I'm rabbiting on right now! I just wish I'd found it two years ago. Still, always late to a party so I shouldn't be surprised, but better late than never hey?

Onto my writing. I re-read my first novella Monday as I wanted to start tidying up the second and needed to get back into Joshua's head. Such mixed emotions. I think the plot is strong and my writing is pretty good. But when I put it on Amazon I was disappointed (to say the least) that obviously not many people agreed with me, zilch, nada, sad smilie. And I've only had 2 rejections so far but still it hurts. You know how Bella in The Twilight Saga takes everything personally? Yeah, that. But following on from the Wip-It blog hop Carolyn Brown has offered to help me out and maybe work some magic. I feel like I need to hint at some action as the start of the book is slow and laid back, which is what I wanted as that is how Joshua is at the start. And then the writing gets more intense once his mental health/legacy begin to unravel. But obviously if you only glance at the beginning you don't get that.

My first IWSG blog post - please don't leave too depressed and with a heavy heart, I'm not usually such a self-pitying whinge bucket :)